this isnt something i can give you.....but ill strip it from myself to feed your hungers.

no i cannot tell you....but youll realize it one day....probably not soon enough to save me......but non the less its clear where ill be.

so maybe you forgot....maybe i didnt say......but i thought id let it be known that ive created a world where nothings in my way

ya it may be fake....maybe im giving myself a personal hell....but youve helped me get there mr. conscience....and im sure were ganna fail.

now on the other hand your waiting...looking at me with eyes full of a mist i cant understand....but your hiding and your choking me...and all i can do really is watch you tear me to peices.

if my eyes turn grey......the color seems to have faded....and the only tears areo n your face....then im going according to plan

maybe....ill look up....this place cant hold onto me can it?
maybe that sun will rise up....or maybe ill just turn around....heh maybe ill look you in the face...maybe ill come down....this place is a heaven that im trying to find....maybe one day....one day

i dont want to rape you....or take from this place.....i dont want to do to others what i know have done to me (mostly misplaced)

Ok...so youll take from me now?

rape
hate
fake
take
make
hell for you
in here im yours....for the taking..
take from me till theres no more
ill watch and hope youll get tried
but of course theres more....always more
soul stealing
man feeding
hurtful breeding
fucking faking taking all the same
in this line were slowly tiptoeing down youll wait until your close
and the sweetness on your tongue
of course will be my blood
youll suck me dry for all im worth
and toss me off like its all there was

dont worry i wont hate you....we cant have that
ill hold you close like death on a heart
we'll remember its meant to be fucked for all and its name
dont worry...dont worry.....
im here for you
screw me dry.....make me forget
ill hold on for you....
just like all the rest


so my conscience called....and it wants me to come home
i knocked at the doore and he answers with caution
"are you really back?" he asks
"im here as long as it works for me" i reply
"then the door stays shut and ill lock it with regret"
"fine suits me" and i walk without a threat
thats as much as ill fight for a soul id say
dont worry im already dead--as theyve said--

dont worry guy im not in the way.....live in your dreamland
and ill slowly back away
you think its hard to live life?
try taking off that mask and show me the insides
but no you cant
because you see
your life is a picture of *perfect* memories
no lapse in this trainwreck that you brough to yourself
youll gladly take her down to your hidden fucking hell

ILL SIT HERE LIKE ALWAYS YES HERE I AM
WAITING FOR MY TIME WHICH WHEN COMING NEVER ENDS
YOULL TRY TO HATE ME AND ALL PUSH ME AWAY
FUCK ILL IT ALL AWAY

heh....in this place all of its the same
dont forget who knows this and why its not insane

dont worry....dont worry